End of Another Chapter

The metalhead has these songs on his winamp playlist currently
1. There She Goes - The La's
2. Last Kiss - Pearl Jam
3. Bird on a wire - Leonard Cohen
4. The News - Leonard Cohen
5. Leif Erikson - Interpol
6. Kickin' the Heart Out - Rogue Wave
7. Portions for Foxes - Rilo Kiley
8. KK - Pal
9. Rocky Raccoon - The Beatles
10. Canon in D major - Johann Pachelbel
11. Casimir Pulaski Day - Sufjan Stevens
12. Ordinary World - Duran Duran
13. Mamma - Rata Blanca
14. We are One Tonight - Switchfoot
15. Nothing as it seems - Pearl Jam
16. Leaving on a Jet Plane - John Denver
17. Champagne Supernova - Oasis

He has a Ying Yang, a die, an R and a certain someone facing the alter ego with clumsy hair on his right shoulder. He defrags instead of fragging! Has a t-shirt which says 'I'm Feeling Lucky and I'm armed with condoms'. A headless phoenix on his back. Memories in his fucked up head and complete withdrawal symptoms in his every act which includes walking alone around the institute from 0100 hrs to 0400 hrs after getting drunk. How could they sing pal inside a call taxi?

Ahem...something's fishy. Anyway, the after-effect will take its toll for another week and the getting-over bit shall mature by then. I swear I wont pull a 'before sunset'.

They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we've become, we just feel more alone
Always weigh what I've got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death

XOXOX
Less than three :-)

Trip

Lab, auto, long beach, taxi, bus, Bangalore, marijuana, 300, alcohol, marijuana, crash, 4:30 am, alcohol, marijuana, call, sid, maiden show, VPN (suck), Parikrama <3, st="on">Scotland, weeds (blah!), Ibanez GSR200, Speed kills, Pachelbel’s canon, Stu Hamm, still tripmax, marijuana, pizza, alcohol, Hattrick???(wtf?), hair pulling, clapping, interval woes, marijuana, crash, 4 am, The Naked Mile (thu!), Better by the dozen, listening to celebrity, meeting a celebrity, blue spice, vodka with lime cordial, back, marijuana, stoned, Indian Batting till 45 overs, bus, 5:21 am Chennai, 8 am class, lab at 1 and back just now to write all this.

Characters:

Gapa, Dumbo, Aastha, Lala, Naan, Masti, Macha, Banner, celebrity, sid. I was NOT there. Yeah, the ignorant dumbfuck who does not have to try hard to be what he is.

Loved:

The welcome break, silence, the fact that no one bothered, my rejuvenated obliviousness, Kuntrymax in the theatre,Styx, MAIDEN!!

Hated:

Posers during the show, susceptibility, the fact that I got used, my juvenility (not exactly but yeah kind of), not visiting masi’s place.

Moral:

WTF? STFU and Pooooorrrk, which means crab people, will always be crab

Fleee

Rant

Changes in human nature due to circumstances are so awesomely aweful! People never bother to even look back at what they were in order to be what they are. Being what you are is good, but you actually were someone else and now what is being done is that you are making futile attempts at redeeming yourself to another level, which is so unacceptable. I mean eh? I am Jack’s complete lack of surprise! I see you today as something and tomorrow as someone else just like watching two Brad Pitt movies in a day. Sounds really funny but it gets on my nerves. Inborn characteristics are taken for a hike! OMG! Where are the ethics and principles? Aaaah why am I even thinking of all this when I know it is the upbringing, which matters in such cases. All they hear is otiose after otiose and hence harbor such ideas. These kind of things are the harbinger to produce the kind of person you are. Zero ethics, no moral values, everything is fair, crap is good, utter bullshit I say! Anyway, it’s up to the levels of settling down for mediocrity. One should actually pity this class. Me? Yeah I do pity them a lot, but then again I wonder why? Why should I pity for them? Who am I? The Godfather of the lot or what?

   This forces me to think whether it is the right way or not? Because the real you, if it comes out, then it is never accepted by the society and people around you. Why? No good reason behind that either. Scarcity of concrete reasoning is another one of the reasons why this issue is never raised. Running away from the truth is like fashion! Learning from mistakes and then changing some parts of you is very much acceptable because it is the way life is meant to be, but changing yourself overnight for no reason whatsoever is like “hmm…so I would love to be Sobhraj today, but no it would be better if I were Osama.” B-A-H! Clamorous shouting for this change catalyses the process further and then comes the best part. You are loved by a group of people for being someone you are not. Bunch of fools and their cronies. IDIOTS! Only to satisfy others huh? Never even bother about your own conscience and yeah die with your boots on, with a gazillion people attending your funeral and lamenting the loss of the guy who was so good and happy go lucky etc. But you will know that you were the worst victim of the disease so known as bipolar disorder. Don’t look at it in a stern way will you. Yeah I agree truth as straight as this comes like a cut throat shotgun shell. But I must say, if there is something the “you” kind deserve…it’s this. I read this somewhere and I am glad I can repeat this. You’ve whored your soul to the devil.